Pre-Christmas Ramblings

I've been rather shit at writing regularly but nothing interesting has happened to report and I've had no interesting thoughts spring into my head as all I can think about is 2:15pm next Tuesday when school is out for Christmas!!! Although I hate Christmas, I am looking forward to catching up on some sleep.

I've set aside tomorrow for Christmas shopping and am absolutely dreading it; pushing my way through all the crowds all for the sake of buying some cheap tat that I can give someone as a present. All I really want to do is sit in front of the fire, drink mulled wine and watch DVDs. I've also got the problem of not knowing what to buy for D. Do I buy him anything at all? I don't feel like I know him well enough to get him something really 'him' that he'll appreciate, nor do I have the inclination to pore aimlessly over all the Christmas tat. So should I get him something lame like aftershave?

The shortest day is next Friday. So after that I'm hoping my mood will lift, and that I can start looking forward to Spring, which admittedly is still a long way off...

I'm out to dinner tonight with D. I wonder how we'll get along. It's been fine but the lack of communication between one date to the next is really starting to get on my nerves. I know I can easily call him, but I kind of think he should be the one making the efftort to call at this early stage. I know as well that if I simply tell him to call me more and explain why, that he 'll do it. But even then if he does call, I'll know he's only doing it because I've told him to. I'm not sure how this is going to pan out. The older I get the more intolerant I am. Which is why I'll die alone.

Everyone is in a couple at the minute and writing my Christmas cards was very depressing: Clare and Al, Nathalie and Jim, Steph and Tom, Jemma and Scott, Emma and Dave...Maybe one Christmas I'll get to sign Cath and ???

Dream on

C x